Between girl and woman..

at this time, i keep wondering.. why i become more feeling uncomfortable with the girls..
please note, it's a girl not a woman.. i still feel OK with so many woman's around me..
like my mom, my grandma, my cousin, and my aunt..

but with this girls don't know why, i feel so interrupted with them..

one of them keep patronizing me, as i am a guilty or bad person and she is a holy one..
i have said, if just saying or giving and advice is so easy
even my grandma who has 70 years old still can give a very wise advice to me..
but the difference is my grandma isn't just saying but she give me a real fact and example too..
i think the real example is more precious than just a thousand words without proof..

let me call this girl with patronize girl's..
she never realize how annoying she is and her words..
every words that she called it advice not feel warming but feel so hurting
yesterday, she spoke to me about sincerity..
"hey, if you giving something or helping someone, you must do it with using some sincerity.
if you use your hearts while doing anything it will be very different and whatever you do, you can enjoy it..
and blah.. blah.. blah.. (sometimes she add some verse from bible to patronizing me)


then at the end she ask to borrow some money to me.. it's six hundred thousand rupiah, exactly
she said, that she want to go for some treatment at spa for her body
but she not yet get the salary for this month..
hmm, hell girl.. a minute ago you speak about sincerity in giving to me, then you rob a lot of money from me
so this is the reason.. yes i understand now..

why she doesn't use her wisely word to advising her self
wasting more than half million just for treat her body ( i think it's not even whole body, maybe just hair, hand and leg).. is it wise?
maybe it will be better if you donating that money to orphanage or give it to people who really need it..
nah it called the true"sincerity" indeed..

sometimes she even dare told me to buying some phone voucher for her
just because she feeling the weather is too hot for her to walking outside...
damn, freaking girl.. (my heart and my mind shouting)
she even not my girl friend or my closer friend but she can told me like that
where is your heart??
you afraid of the sun heat
but you can see me get burned by sun beam to buy your phone voucher
hmm, heartless girl...

yup, everything i think it will be OK
she can be a heartless girl or she can be insincere girl.. y it's her honor
but please don't give a holy advice to me about that
because you don't deserve to said that to me..
you must make a introspection first before you patronizing someone..
if you a robber, so never give an advice to other for not robbing someone

yes she just one of so many annoying girl's that i know..
another girls keep digging up some personal secret or info from me
then she spreading it again to the others..
acting like a best friend in front of me, willing to listen every problem of mine
then she spreading it again to the others..

because all of that, i start becoming hate of girl's..
but it doesn't mean if i become hate all kind of female too.. i'm still a straight man

y i just hate an immature woman, that we know as a girl's
they bad characters that i hate like, materialistic, egoist, stubborn, ignorant, etc..
it so different with (true) woman characters
they can be so motherly, wise, care, genuine, etc..
so the conclusion is from my explanation above is:
girl = immature woman, and woman = mature girl


being mature isn't about age..
some girls can become a woman in such a young age..
being mature is about change..
when you decide to change your behavior from such a cute and spoiled girls
to become more firmly and independent..
in that time the girls has turn to be a woman..

hmm, i think it's little bit weird for a male like me
to write about some female characteristic, but i write this entry
just because i want to share my perception about the difference between girl and woman
because nowadays, there's be a lot of girls who thought if she had become a woman
but in fact they are not..

for the last, i just want to share.. one good article, that i think it's really related to our entry today..
here it is..

It’s amazing how God made man, and so beautiful how he made woman!

Why did God create Woman from Man’s rib, when He could

have simply created her from dust, as He did Man? This

is a story that puts a beautiful touch on the

reasoning:

“When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke

them into being. When I created man, I formed him from

the dust of the Earth and breathed life into his

nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed

the breath of life into man because your nostrils are

too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him

so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. Man

was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with

the creativity. From one bone I fashioned you. I chose

the bone that protects man’s life. I chose the rib,

which protects his heart and lungs and supports him,

as you are meant to do.”

“Around this one bone I shaped you. I modeled you. I

created you perfectly and beautifully. Your

characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate

and fragile. You provide protection for the most

delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the

center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of

life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken

before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man

as the rib cage supports the body.”

“You were not taken from his feet, to be under him,

nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You

were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be

held close to his side. You are my perfect angel. You

are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a

splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I

see the virtue in your heart. Your eyes: don’t change

them. Your lips: how lovely when they part in prayer.

Your nose so perfect in form, your hands so gentle to

touch. I’ve caressed your face in your deepest sleep;

I’ve held your heart close to mine. Of all that lives

and breathes, you are the most like me.”

“Adam walked with me in the cool of the day and yet he

was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could

only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and

experience with me, I fashioned in you: my holiness,

my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and

support. You are special because you are the extension

of me.”

“Man represents my image, woman – my emotions.

Together, you represent the totality of God. So man:

treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is

fragile. In hurting her, you hurt me. What you do to

her, you do to me. In crushing her, you only damage

your own heart, the heart of your Father and the heart

of her Father. Woman, support man. In humility, show

him the power of emotion I have given you. In gentle

quietness show your strength. In love, show him that

you are the rib that protects his inner self.”

The dangerous boys

SNSD or girl generation have a new variety program last month
in jtec channel if i don't get wrong..

and from the beginning i was really sure
if this show is worth enough to watch..

In this show, the 9 gorgeous girls will become the teachers for 5 dangerous boys..
firstly i'm so confuse, what they means with the dangerous boys?
does the girls will go to the prison and meet with some criminal persons
or maybe they will meet their fanatic fans who little bit crazy and psycho..
but hopefully  its not like that..

the dangerous boys are students from some senior high school who have a very bad attitude in their life..
for example there's be a student who often smoking and drink after the class, like fighting with the others and have a very bad temper, love to swearing a bad words, and always disobey the rules at their school...

then each students will be match with two girls from soshe, except sunny who teach a good boy ( i think) just by her self...

after i watch some episodes of this show, i think this show is so great
we can take some good values from there.. and it should be good for the parents to watching this too
coz from this show i have know
if some of the boys becoming a bad boys because they have so many problems with their parents or family..

like there's be one student who often get an abuse from his father, so he choose to runaway from his house and leave with his grandma.. then he didn't get enough attention and loves from his parents because their parent was too busy with their works..

y everything's must be have a reason or background
like why a good boy can turn into a bad boy..
it must be something wrong with their society or family

and it was the girls duty to change 'em into the good boys again...
like they teach the boys too dancing
so the boys can do more a positive work to do
an change their bad habits

y i believe if at the ending
all the boys will becoming a good boys
and successful persons
because they have a will to change
and accept the others good advice for 'em

Unclear

nowadays, i have so many times to write something on my blog..

y at one side this good coz i can meet with u more often rite?

but at the other side, now i feel so useless and clumsy

i don't know what i must to do

everyday i wake up with spiritless and have a dark faced

coz i'm really sure if my day won't be different than yesterday..

y i just dunno and dunno

why it can be ended like this

maybe sometime i ever made a mistake

but i think, we can talk about it directly rite

and finish it together

so i can know what's my fault

and what it's should be?

doing something clear and vivid is easier than

doing some uncleanly things rite?

like you want to solve some puzzle without you know the real picture of it

and like playing games without know the rules and objection..

now, i'm like sailing without know any direction..

there's not be someone who want to tell me what i must doing right now

if i keep silent it would be wrong 

but if i doing something that i can

it will be wrong too

i just thinking, maybe from the beginning

i being in the wrong place 

please someone out there, just give me a sign 

where i must to go now..

coz what i seeing from my window now is so unclear....

and for the next 3 months, i will still see this things from my window...

Sweets outside but Poisonous inside

Happy new year!!!!
this is my first new entry in this new year, 2012
but at the beginning of this year, there's be a lot of bad things that was happened

and i'll tell you the worse one..

sometimes i can't understand why one good person who have a specific religion and always doing the worship as the routine still can't realize and differ which is right and which is wrong?
for example.. i'm a christian, i often go to church for worshiping my God, i always praying every time when i need Him..
but what's the point all of that things if i'm still doing so many bad habits in my daily life and i even not practicing all "good theory" that I've got in the real life..
it was nothing, right?

y and that's all what i have seen now..
one of my friend always acting like a goddess in front of me, and i always see her as a holy person who never make a sin (perhaps)..
because her behavior and attitude in talking and doing anything is good in my opinion..
she often send me a verse that taken from the bible..
she often give me an advice and some religious message..

but (once again) that was wrong..
i see her true face when i got one trouble nowadays..
when i really feel down because of that problem and i get so many bad judgement from my haters
i hope she as my good friend and my closest person can able to support me and give me a good motivation for raising up my spirit back..
but she did the opposite things, she insult me, make a bad mouth about me, etc..
y i didn't see her as a friend in this case now..

as a friend we should help each other and give a good respect, right?
i keep thinking, why she's not use the verse and all advice that ever she give to me for her own self?
like she ever told me, if making a lie is a sin, but i just know if she have make a lie to me..
she told me if i must be a loyal friend for everyone.. but i can't see her loyalty now..
wew, its so useless i think...
what's the meaning of all her good words?

one thing that i learn from this case, friend is just friend..
they are a human too, not a perfect person like what i imagined before
sometime they show their angel side but sometime they show the evil side
and they are called a poisonous friends..
sweets outside but poisonous inside..

being good isn't a mask that can be used or released every time, but its a commitment that we must hold forever with a sincerity..
just be honest with your self, and whatever you are or whichever your side.. show it!
its the real good.. not pretend to be good..

Care and Hatred

huuffff, finally its almost the end of this year everyone...

I get a lot of new story in this year, it was so awesome.. it triple times better than what I've felt last year..

but the worse one is my biggest resolution for this year to "fix" my self was failed again.. 

y just lets to write it again that thing on my resolution for next year..hehehe

one story that I want to share this time is still related to my last entry before..

y so two days ago one of my friend tell me, if she has meet with the man "You-Know-Who" or "He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named" for a little reunion..

i have know if that man will be back to here for a vacation in this month, and i've guess if he will make a clarification to them about what was happen between us..

i exactly didn't know what was he said to my friends and i think, i don't need to ask also.. i just asking my friend if she has sent my regards for him.. and she say yes

then she said, if we should meet each other sometime to clear this problem, because what was happened between us is just because a misunderstanding...

he really cares to me but he can't express it directly to me and until now he always pray for me.. 

and he feels glad to know that i was so happy to life in the direction that i've choose now

yup, after that i just keep thinking about her last message..

HE REALLY CARES TO YOU, BUT HE CAN'T EXPRESSED IT

hmm, i just says... really ???

if he really cares about me, why he can't express it?

is it really embarrassing to cares each other, or maybe is it so shameful because both of us the man?

y whatever.. i can't see his truly heart and can't read his mind

i just say a big thanks... if its true..

but make a flashback again, i wondering in which part he has show his careful to me?

when i graduated from the college, when i accepted to that damn campus #upsss#

does he ever say something, give a congrats to me or what... hmm, its no

when i was struggling to finish all requirements that need to go there,

does he ever give me a hand or offering some helps... hmm, its no

its 180 degree different than he has done to his "beloved sons"

he gave a full supports to help them in every their problems, he even went back to here just to pick up them directly, they are going everywhere together, they sharing and live in the same room together...

haha, where is my position in that beautiful story? 

y i'm exactly so far from them.. he even not says a welcome when i arrived there.. hmm, so pathetic

but its ok, i never blame him for what was happen..

i just to late to realize where is my position.. from the beginning we were not too close, and because i'm too ignorant i have put a big hope into him..

y its my mistake.. not his fault.. :)

yup, lets finish all of it now.. we have a new and better life now.. 

and of course we were so happy and proud of it.. right?

maybe until now i still can't see and understand what the definition of your cares to me..

i even can't distinguish is it care or hatred... 

y a real proof that you do will be more effective for me, than so many words that you says 

but whatever it is, i just want to send one pray for you

i hope you can be more mature, have a big responsible, wise in behave and honest in every ways

y i think u will be a better man later

and just find your loosing ribs soon...hehehe

y that's it.. 

long and nice holiday is coming soon, just have a blessing and wonderful holiday everyone... ^^

Memento moria

I just imagine some memory from the last year
about what was happens, and what i have seen...

it was so wonderful, and leave an unforgettable moment
it was Memento moria...

April 2010

September 2010 -  Desember 2010

2011

The best Indonesian movie so far

yup, this is some Indonesian movie that i think its worthed to watch

and i wanted to shared it with you.. 

just watch it and you will find what that different with other movies

1. Rumah Dara

This isn't such horror movie that show a lot disgusting ghost... but its give you the real fear of one killer and psycho family...

This movie is made by The Mo Brother, and its titled Macabre in English..

Here, some recension about that movie...

Adjie dan Astrid, pasangan yang baru saja dikarunia anak bernama Nico pergi ke Bandung bersama tiga orang temannya Jimmy, Eko dan Alam. Mereka pergi ke Bandung untuk berpamitan dengan Ladya, adiknya karena Adjie dan Astrid akan pergi ke Australia dan memulai hidup disana.. Hubungan Adjie dan Ladya sebenarnya kurang harmonis semenjak kematian orang tua mereka. Dengan usaha keras, Adjie pun berhasil membujuk Ladya dan mau mengantarkannya ke Bandara. Saat menuju bandara, mereka menemukan seorang wanita bernama Maya yang sedang mengalami musibah perampokan. Mereka pun mengantarkan Maya ke rumahnya.

Disana, mereka disambut baik oleh penghuni rumah. Seorang gadis anggun bernama Dara dan menawan mempersilahkan menikmati makan malam yang telah disediakan. Disinilah pengalaman buruk 6 orang teman lama dimulai. Kebaikan hati penghuni rumah menjadi awal bencana di hari kelam itu. Mereka pingsan setelah menyantap makanan tersebut dan mendapati diri mereka terkurung ketika tersadar.

Kebaikan hati, kemurahan hati dan senyum manis berubah drastis di keluarga tersebut. Mereka menjadi pembunuh yang keji. Keenam orang tersebut terjebak dalam situasi mencekam dimana satu persatu mereka dibantai secara sistematis. Mereka harus berjuang melarikan diri dari rumah berdarah tersebut. Akankah mereka berhasil? Siapakah Dara dan keluarga tersebut? pertanyaan ini akan terjawab jika kalian menonton film ini.

Film ini dibintangi oleh artis/aktor Julie Estelle, Shareefa Daanish, Ario Bayu, Sigi Wimala, Mike Muliardo, Imelda Theriine, Arifin Putra, Dendy Subangil dan Daniel Mananta.

yup, this is the best thriller movie that i ever watch, Dara is like a sadako in another version, she is really scary when she ran and bring a saw machine to kill ladya...

you must watch it and you will find its fear...

the most fearful and funny scene from this movie: "Gimana rasanya nak, enak kan dagingnya?" (when ladya eat the steak from human meat. owwwww... weeekkkssss)

2. Madame X

This is a fusion from a comedy and action movie...

in this movie my favorite comedian Aming become a trans gender superhero

and there's so many good actress and actor that play on this movie..

Here the recension of that movie..

Tegakkan Keadilan Jaga Penampilan. Setidaknya itulah slogan yang diucapkan sang super hero, Madame X dalam aksi heroiknya. Adalah Adam (Aming), seorang super hero yang awalnya hanyalah seorang pemilik salon. Awalnya ia hidup bahagia dengan orang tua angkatnya dan dua orang sahabatnya Aline (Joko Anwar) dan Cun Cun (Fitri Tropica).

Saat itu Adam yang tengah merayakan ulang tahunnya di salon tiba-tiba kedatangan Bunda Lilis (Sarah Sechan). Ia mencari salon yang pemiliknya sedang berulang tahun. Dengan alasan merapikan rambut di salon Adam, Bunda Lilis meramalkan masa depan Adam namun ramalan tersebut pun diacuhkannya.

Selepas dari ramalan Bunda Lilis, Adam merayakan ulang tahunnya bersama Alin dan Cuncun di sebuah klub waria. Namun tiba-tiba saja sebuah ormas yang menamakan dirinya Ormas Bogem langsung menyerang dan menculik mereka dan waria lainnya.

Ormas yang dipimpin oleh Kanjeng Badai (Marcel) menewaskan seorang sahabatnya yang dilempar dari truk yang mengangkut mereka. Melihat sahabatnya tewas, Adam langsung marah dan menyerang Ormas tersebut. Namun Adam justru diperlakukan sama, ia juga dilempar keluar dari truk.

Adam diselamatkan oleh pasangan suami istri Om Rudi (Robby Tumewu) dan Tante Yantje (Ria Irawan). Pasangan tersebut pun merawat Adam dengan baik. Bahkan pasangan yang memiliki sanggar tari itu meminta Adam belajar tari Lenggok. Ternyata dari tarian itulah Adam dilatih dan dididik untuk menjadi seorang super hero.

Anda mungkin tidak heran jika melihat sosok Aming dengan pakaian wanitanya. Namun dalam film yang digarap oleh Lucky Kuswandi ini Anda akan disuguhkan dengan penampilan kocak Aming yang tidak hanya memakai pakaian wanita saja, namun dengan kostum ala super hero lengkap dengan topeng yang turut diihiasi dengan celana super ketat, glitter, dan hak tinggi akan memberikan suatu tampilan yang berbeda bagi pria berdarah sunda tesebut. Tidak hanya itu, Aming juga unjuk kebolehan dengan tarian dan keahlian bela dirinya.

Selain Aming, masih Ada Joko Anwar yang akan mengundang gelak tawa. Bagaimana tidak, pria yang berprofesi sebagai sutradara itu menjelma dengan menjadi seorang waria. Anda bisa bayangkan dengan tubuh seorang Joko Anwar dibalut dengan berbagai pakaian wanita ditambah dengan bahasa ala waria kebanyakan yang tentunya tidak akan bisa menahan tawa Anda.

Tidak hanya kekuatan akting para pemain yang menjual film ini, jalan ceritanya yang tidak biasa juga menjadi suatu sisi menarik yang berhasil ditonjolkan. Lucky sang sutradara berhasil mengemasnya dengan menyelipkan beberapa isu-isu yang pernah berkembang di masyarakat sekaligus menyentilnya.

yup, its so funny and you must watch it... it will make a change in our point of view about the trans gender people...
y they are not a bad people, they can become a superhero too... hehehe