The dangerous boys

SNSD or girl generation have a new variety program last month
in jtec channel if i don't get wrong..

and from the beginning i was really sure
if this show is worth enough to watch..

In this show, the 9 gorgeous girls will become the teachers for 5 dangerous boys..
firstly i'm so confuse, what they means with the dangerous boys?
does the girls will go to the prison and meet with some criminal persons
or maybe they will meet their fanatic fans who little bit crazy and psycho..
but hopefully  its not like that..

the dangerous boys are students from some senior high school who have a very bad attitude in their life..
for example there's be a student who often smoking and drink after the class, like fighting with the others and have a very bad temper, love to swearing a bad words, and always disobey the rules at their school...

then each students will be match with two girls from soshe, except sunny who teach a good boy ( i think) just by her self...

after i watch some episodes of this show, i think this show is so great
we can take some good values from there.. and it should be good for the parents to watching this too
coz from this show i have know
if some of the boys becoming a bad boys because they have so many problems with their parents or family..

like there's be one student who often get an abuse from his father, so he choose to runaway from his house and leave with his grandma.. then he didn't get enough attention and loves from his parents because their parent was too busy with their works..

y everything's must be have a reason or background
like why a good boy can turn into a bad boy..
it must be something wrong with their society or family

and it was the girls duty to change 'em into the good boys again...
like they teach the boys too dancing
so the boys can do more a positive work to do
an change their bad habits

y i believe if at the ending
all the boys will becoming a good boys
and successful persons
because they have a will to change
and accept the others good advice for 'em

Unclear

nowadays, i have so many times to write something on my blog..

y at one side this good coz i can meet with u more often rite?

but at the other side, now i feel so useless and clumsy

i don't know what i must to do

everyday i wake up with spiritless and have a dark faced

coz i'm really sure if my day won't be different than yesterday..

y i just dunno and dunno

why it can be ended like this

maybe sometime i ever made a mistake

but i think, we can talk about it directly rite

and finish it together

so i can know what's my fault

and what it's should be?

doing something clear and vivid is easier than

doing some uncleanly things rite?

like you want to solve some puzzle without you know the real picture of it

and like playing games without know the rules and objection..

now, i'm like sailing without know any direction..

there's not be someone who want to tell me what i must doing right now

if i keep silent it would be wrong 

but if i doing something that i can

it will be wrong too

i just thinking, maybe from the beginning

i being in the wrong place 

please someone out there, just give me a sign 

where i must to go now..

coz what i seeing from my window now is so unclear....

and for the next 3 months, i will still see this things from my window...

Sweets outside but Poisonous inside

Happy new year!!!!
this is my first new entry in this new year, 2012
but at the beginning of this year, there's be a lot of bad things that was happened

and i'll tell you the worse one..

sometimes i can't understand why one good person who have a specific religion and always doing the worship as the routine still can't realize and differ which is right and which is wrong?
for example.. i'm a christian, i often go to church for worshiping my God, i always praying every time when i need Him..
but what's the point all of that things if i'm still doing so many bad habits in my daily life and i even not practicing all "good theory" that I've got in the real life..
it was nothing, right?

y and that's all what i have seen now..
one of my friend always acting like a goddess in front of me, and i always see her as a holy person who never make a sin (perhaps)..
because her behavior and attitude in talking and doing anything is good in my opinion..
she often send me a verse that taken from the bible..
she often give me an advice and some religious message..

but (once again) that was wrong..
i see her true face when i got one trouble nowadays..
when i really feel down because of that problem and i get so many bad judgement from my haters
i hope she as my good friend and my closest person can able to support me and give me a good motivation for raising up my spirit back..
but she did the opposite things, she insult me, make a bad mouth about me, etc..
y i didn't see her as a friend in this case now..

as a friend we should help each other and give a good respect, right?
i keep thinking, why she's not use the verse and all advice that ever she give to me for her own self?
like she ever told me, if making a lie is a sin, but i just know if she have make a lie to me..
she told me if i must be a loyal friend for everyone.. but i can't see her loyalty now..
wew, its so useless i think...
what's the meaning of all her good words?

one thing that i learn from this case, friend is just friend..
they are a human too, not a perfect person like what i imagined before
sometime they show their angel side but sometime they show the evil side
and they are called a poisonous friends..
sweets outside but poisonous inside..

being good isn't a mask that can be used or released every time, but its a commitment that we must hold forever with a sincerity..
just be honest with your self, and whatever you are or whichever your side.. show it!
its the real good.. not pretend to be good..